College.

suddenly i got the mood to write about my college experience. i mean, after so long?! i'm already in 2nd year of uni & suddenly college? what's wrong with me right?

to be honest, although I'm in where I am now, my heart never left where I graduated college from - Sunway. probably because of the environment.. or something.. many disliked that area but personally i like it. i guess i go where less of my friends are. most of my friends went to Taylor's. or MCKL.

(uh yes I went to MCKL but I left 'cause they didn't allow me to switch to AUSMAT in February. & so coincidentally my dad wanted me to do Australian matriculation after few months thinking A Levels will be the best for me)

coming to uni alone is not an easy task. many of my friends in uni had their own 'known' friends from college, etc but I had none. even if I had, we were from different groups & soon after a semester, my college mate left because of some personal reasons.

i still remember my first day in uni. i stepped in knowing no one. met some friends, was happy. but then again, shit happens. probably i am the reason to all that has happened but, i got no other choice right? i still have to graduate.

anyway, back to college.

stepping into MCKL was almost similar to stepping into WMS, except we were wearing our own clothes but no shorts, no slippers, no sleeveless, nothing revealing. oh not even a simple smocked spaghetti strap dress with cardigan over (friend's experience). even i got sent to the vice principal's office for wearing a 3 quarter denim.

time table was okay, there are breaks here and there but no classes end earlier than 3pm everyday except for Friday because it's some CF day. so yeah, it was quite of a living hell for me. (but i still made it through :3)

the reason why i went to MCKL was because i had 30% off tuition fees as i was moving on from WMS :) MCKL & WMS are affiliated, you see. for a whole A Levels course plus books & stuff, it doesn't exceed RM15k :) plus they have good student academic records :)

halfway through sem1 (3 sems altogether for A Levels), SPM results were released & within a day or 2, we had education fair in KLCC & Mid Valley. went to work to experience work :D earned some cash :D

dad came by, & suddenly he went to inquire for me. initially i did propose MUFY because its the closest to Sydney Uni Foundation Program in AUS. I wanted to go to Australia what. I've no idea what made my dad changed his mind but to actually send me to Sunway to study AUSMAT o_o I still wonder now, some times.

we did consider polytechnics in Singapore for some pharmaceutical diploma, in hope that I will get to appeal to do lesser years in degree.  but oh well, Singapore Polytechnic & Ngee Ann Polytechnic decided to hurt my feelings by telling me that there is no way i can do what i planned for so.. here I am, still in Malaysia. we even went to the polytechnics in SINGAPORE for all that inquiries.

just a day after SPM results, my dad straightaway shoot me "you wanna do A Levels or AUSMAT?" when i just stepped into my house not even off my shoes yet. i took the whole day to think because I wanna do AUSMAT, but I don't wanna leave someone in A Levels.. it was a freaking dilemma.

then my dad said he'll decide for me - AUSMAT. don't wanna waste time. or so he says..

sure, i left with a heavy heart. i went to bid my goodbyes the next day, to apply for my refundable deposit, & say my thanks to Mr Reuben. Mr Reuben didn't give me a very confident feeling that I will do well in AUSMAT because March intake is very "hectic" & I won't have time to rush them off. so I left MCKL, with mixed feelings.

no more living hell, no more LONG jeans & sandals, WHAT DO YOU THINK?!?

so yeah, the day after was the orientation, (i can say that i registered the day before the orientation) went to Sunway looking like a village girl - long jeans, etc. trained by MCKL. (somehow i think its a good training cause it trains you to be "professional")

what made me happier was the time table is so awesome that I can "select" my own slots & every class will have different people :D i like that kind of life :3

since I wasn't good at Physics, I didn't do Physics. was about to do pure science & go ahead and die but i have no idea what stopped me at that moment. maybe i should have done Physics instead of Biology instead ._. not like i am good at Biology anyway.

time passed really fast that year, day after day, week after week, sem after sem. i left MCKL with big hopes that i don't wanna get my heart broken in Sunway, but oh well, shit happens again.

always skipping CAE, always sleeping in CAE classes..

i love CAE because i don't need to really study so much for that :D except sometimes it's another half-living hell because you need to know the latest news in some companies & stuff like that. it was a "business" subject. hell boy, little did I know I love studying business. but not accounting wtf.

although i skip & sleep in CAE classes, my results for CAE paper will never go lower than 70% :D unlike other subjects, if I don't read or do something about it, it'll go below 50%. except for Biology. even if I stay awake 24/7 to study Biology, I can never make it through 60% ._. 1st sem was even shittier, 46% I think..

other subjects were 70% & 80%, but for Biology.. the only subject out of 5, I got 40+% ._.

the script looked ugly of course.

so i made a new goal for myself - to score more than 50% ._. I made it through that, I got quite above average for Biology for sem2. guess my hard work paid off (making my own notes, study JUST biology). i think my results were all above average that year, except Biology. (anyway, for ATAR they only take top 4 subjects for AUSMAT, so i kinda decided that i will flunk my Biology ._.)

made new friends in college, made good friends in college.. a bond that cannot be forgotten - Woei Yee, Jo'Anne & Michelle.

oh yes we had our ups & downs but we went through them all. honestly i miss them. i have no idea why i take this bond so seriously when maybe they don't give a crap about it. (well, I am still learning, alright?)

since i had no sisters (except for my cousin) & my brother was away, i was all alone at home, until Woei Yee became my sister :) yes we're not related anyhow but i felt like, i was loved & all. it's another sisterly bond i can never have with anyone. it's something that cannot be bought at any price.

there's once we argued 'cause i didn't want to cook soup for her. oh dear, look at that!? what kind of stupid reason, right? but it's what made us closer, & how she always piss me off, it became a norm.

we were in different classes for 2 subjects - Chemistry, & another elective. she did Psychology while I did CAE. so from Chem 8, I moved to Chem 7, where the 3 of them are there. i went for classes in the morning sometimes for Chem 8, and I crashed Chem 7 anyhow :)

my teachers were all awesome teachers. they weren't only like "you keep quiet now, dont talk when i'm teaching" but they were all interactive. ready to help anytime. i liked that kind of teachers. except for Miss Diana was a little scary o_o but it's where I get to improve my Chemistry :)

many disliked the teachers i liked, because they are all funny & they talk nonsense or they really teach. to me, they are educating me, but to them, they are boring. since I had a "mini failure" from my SPM results, i started having "hardworking" disease ever since.

i didn't get ATAR 90+ like i planned for, i have only myself to blame. i got myself hurt for some reason and was distracted. i got ATAR 90+ for mocks but WACE gave me 10% discount ._. so I got 80+. which is why, i am not in Australia :( or Singapore.

IMU was my last choice since i didn't want to pursue my degree here but that's where my results can only lead me to. so yeah </3 they say IMU has the highest qualification but i don't think so..personally. it's because i got rejected by many universities to know enough that IMU is not that tough to enter. but it's definitely tough to make it through the years in IMU.

it's easy to get in, but it's tough to finish the degree.

the environment in IMU is so different that it always make me miss Sunway so much. my batch has too little people compared to other batches. everything seems so limited in IMU.. but then again, i cannot compare because of the location differences. thank god there are places to eat nearby IMU - Sri Petaling. they have Chatime, Ochado, Padi House, PappaRich, etc! :3

& IMU is also 15 mins away from Sunway :) i missed Sunway so much i actually went to Sunway almost daily the first few weeks. then it slowly died to a few times a week, then fortnightly, then never ._.

it took a year for me to overcome this deep feelings inside me. i felt like crap, i cried several times but of course, i told none of the 3. don't even think that any of them will know. to them, life has moved on, & friends known in the past are meant to be forgotten. i know i should move on as well. but as much as i want to, i do cherish good friends i made in the past & want to keep them.

the truth hurts, i know i have to let go everything i had in my memory - Sunway, college, & friends. yes it sure gave me a very good experience studying there but I know i have to let them all go sooner or later.

the reason why i am typing this out is to keep a 'memoir' on my college experience for myself.

i know everyone goes through this, and it's only how well they take it :) i guess this is life. constantly moving on from the past.

anyhow, Sunway College will always be planted in my heart.

after all, i am a Sunway alumni :)