Ice-cream isn't fresh.

can anyone tell me if ice-cream can be either fresh or not?

I personally find it very stupid. not to mention it's nonsensical. but yeah it wouldn't hurt to know how other people think about it.

let's just say, McDonald's vanilla cone ice cream. I'm not talking about the cone, I'm talking about the ice-cream.

how can an ice cream ever be not fresh? -.- if you can knock some sense into my head that ice cream can be not fresh, I will... try to test all ice cream and be a 'fresh ice cream taster' to earn a living.

to me, foods that are frozen are all edible. ice cream, not fresh? I know meat can be not fresh but it's still edible. but, I don't get how ice cream can be not fresh.

my favorite ice-cream at the moment is Moo Cow Frozen Yogurt. I even bought a tub of it to slowly eat 'em all. & grow sideways. comparing Moo Cow to Tutti Frutti...

Moo Cow is milkier, and Tutti Frutti is definitely more sour.
Moo Cow is RM9.90 for a cup of froyo + topping, and Tutti Frutti charges by weight.

the rest is for you to decide :)

since I'm always seeing on the calories count, I'm not too sure if Moo Cow or Tutti Frutti has more sugar.

for me, I love to put oatmeal as my topping. what about you? :D it's so interesting to know what others normally put on their froyo.

yogurugen?

I just bought yogurugen from Caring Pharmacy the other day.

I've been working here for awhile now and I've passed by the "detox" aka "slimming" area many many times and been wanting to try out something else besides Clenx Tea & slimming cream. (yes I've tried Clenx Tea and will write on what I've tried later)

the trial pack for yogurugen is definitely expensive but for the price of one's beauty, why not right?!
since it's supposed to taste like yogurt so I hope it'll taste the same or else I will scream in my own ears! I personally love yogurt so yogurt flavored food / drink makes me happy.

but my boy doesn't like yogurt for some reason so... yeah.

yogurt contains live bacterial cultures that are supposed to aid digestion, etc etc (all those basic knowledge I shall assume you guys know already). when I mention bacteria, it means good bacteria :) [oh also do you know that a piece of kimchi is equivalent to 6 bottles of yogurt?]

when I've tried it I will blog about it! so stay tuned :p

p/s I've so many other stuffs to share as well :) I'm getting pretty much excited because I've trip posts and hauls and reviews to post up!

Dear Cookie,

happy 1st birthday.

I just want to..

Move to America or something.

seems fun.

Sigh.

besides the fact that they are racist towards asians, etc.

Holidays!

So..

I'm finally done with exams. with hope that I will pass.

Many upcoming plans! (:

Not exactly but yeah, to earn some cash. To gain more experience by working in the pharmacy.

& learn more stuffs - craft (polymer clay), nail art, dance ; hopefully! (:

May I pass my papers, so I don't need to feel like shit.

May the force be with me.

How to: pharmacy placement

This is specially for pharmacy students :) [if you're in year 2 / 3 you'll probably know how already so this is for year 1 pharmacy students]

Some of us don't really know how to get a placement job aka internship (but we don't call it internship anyway) in a pharmacy because:-

1. pharmacies aren't looking for short term staffs
2. we are inexperience (as students)
3. etc

definitely not because we're incapable.

i went through that too. i tried asking many pharmacies for a placement job (min 2 weeks to 2 months) from the unknown ones to the big ones like Caring, Watsons, Guardian.

'cause i didn't have a long break, & for my uni, our break will last max 1 month, which included 2 weeks of happy break, then it's either you get another 2 weeks of happy break / 2 weeks of sad break.

why sad break, because you might fail a paper or something & you gotta retake, which is in the final week of the break. so yeah, i could only ask for 2 weeks just in case.

anyway back to how. my guide is how to get into a *big* pharmacy :) & there's only 1 question to this;

1. how to apply / ask as many pharmacies as you can & get the job?
1.1 do not bother if you might get the job or not. it is always okay to reject a job offer if you have others rather than not have a job offer at all. i know, i sound mean when it comes to rejecting job offers but how sure are you that you are getting 1 to start with?

1.2 widen your location preference. i know, some place might be far, & transport might be the issue, etc. so yeah, try getting somewhere as near as where you live but not that near as well? let's say if you stay in Taman Connaught Cheras, try lookin' somewhere in Taman Connaught community pharmacies, areas near Leisure Mall, Shamelin, or Maluri? widen your location preference & you might get picked by your boss, sitting in his / her pharmacy anywhere :)

1.3 try to work as long as you can because chain pharmacies normally have a lot of work to do, that's why they prefer long term staffs as they don't need to keep on *teaching* new staffs. so for a maybe 1 month break, try working for all the weeks? if time permits you to do so. (if you're boss, & A & B comes in at the same time asking for a job & A says that he plans to work for a short time approx 1 month & B says he plans to work for approx 1 yr, which one will you pick? & there's only 1 vacancy left)

1.4 try applying way beforehand. let's say if you wanna start working the next week, so sorry to say you're a little too late. if you wanna start working next week, it's best if you ask / apply waaaaaay few months ahead. (i applied in December when I wanted to work in March) also, just in case if you didn't get the job, you can look further elsewhere :)
1.4.1 step into any pharmacy & ask verbally if they have any vacancies. don't forget to mention that you're a student looking for a job placement & you're looking to gain experience. oh yeah say that you're looking to work for long term instead of short term :) - what i meant is, not full time staff but you'll come back whenever you're free.
1.4.2 friend's recommendation. look for friends who have a job in the local pharmacy & ask if they can *get* you into the pharmacy to work as well. some of the pharmacies they work in might have vacancies & can definitely fit you in! then walla, you get it!
1.4.3 email them! look for their email on google & send them basic resumes. as usual, mention you're a student, which semester, which year. how long you'll be working, location preferences & that you'll be looking forward to their email / replies.
1.4.3.1 basic resume. name, contact number, address, past schools (from primary to present, include years as well), past work experience (if any, include your position & how long you worked for).

1.5 meanwhile waiting for *big* pharmacies' reply, try looking around your housing area's pharmacies as well, just in case.

1.6 do not bother about the pay. as you & i both know, experience credit hours > money when it comes to this :) especially you people who plan to do pre-registration in UK, working experience is important! & if money > experience, i suggest you to look around http://asiaparttime.com

for me, it was all about Caring / Watsons / Guardian so i was praying hard i could get any of the job from either 1 of the pharmacies.

my story: i started applying in December although I planned to email them in November, 'cause well, just in case i couldn't get any of the jobs I would look around to get 1 later. thank God i had 3 replies, & they came in within a month-ish (was it within 2 months? O_O it was quite long if i didn't remember it wrongly). oh i got 3 replies within the same week as well. i had 3 job offers but Caring was my first choice. Guardian emailed me that they could accept me for both 2 weeks & 2 months job first. then a day or 2 after that, Watsons gave me a call saying they could only offer me the 2 months job only. then, Caring emailed me saying that i could walk in anytime for a job briefing a day after Watsons' call :D so well, the job acceptance was obvious :) i couldn't thank God more than ever. oh yes what made me even happier was i got a job from my first pharmacy choice, & also in the location that i wanted to work at!


P/S you might / might not get the job because of the location, etc. so don't scold me if you don't get a job alright. i applied to a pharmacy which is placed in the golden triangle of KL, so it might be slightly different? i even surveyed the pharmacy if they have enough staffs before applying :)

saeng il! :3

it was my birthday an hour plus ago.

just thought i should leave a 'memory' in my immortal diary since maybe i would wanna know what happened today 10 yrs later.

had calls & some whatsapp messages from 12am, to which made me kinda smile as those people who called me were important people in my life <3 woeiyee, carlmann & ida lai :D

woeiyee called me at 12am despite the fact that she was halfway studying, & carlmann called me when she seldom calls me but she called me on MY BIRTHDAY :'3 & ida is all the way in Melbourne, &is a few hours ahead, & she called me! :D

had some relatives over so we chatted till wee hrs and yeahh, that's how i concluded my early morning - with a sleep.

woke up to my boyfriend by my side & his warmth <3 then we left for lunch in Nando's, Pavilion with my mum & my abang, Shaz'ie :D i love bringing my mum to try NEW food so i will normally bring her to places my dad wouldn't want to bring her to.

went there for lunch & some shopping & then that's about it.

then, hehe, it's time to collect my cake from Baskin Robins in Sunway. oh the journey T_T freaking sad. i don't like car rides if you know me personally. but yeah, it's 'kay, i went there. & ciao'ed right after i collected the cake :D

(i know, you're expecting for some pictures right? :D ahh, i will try to add them on soon, but if you think it's a little too dry & prefer pictures instead, follow me on instagram :))

man, it was a freezing experience in my car from Sunway to my house. 'cause it's an ice cream cake, & Kevin & I didn't want it to melt so fast so we blast the air cond to the minimum and we froze ._." for the sake of the cake. #thingsmyboyfrienddo & he is in fact more afraid of being cold.

& the cake is definitely not cheap ._. like what, RM150+ for 9inch? it's very big, & even 12 people eating can't finish it ._. so in the end we left the cake out & ate the ice cream ._. once it's thawed, you can't refreeze it back.

anyway to anyone of you who wants a Baskin Robins ice cream cake for your birthday, do keep in mind that they need at least 3 days to 'custom make' your own cake design. since my boyfriend didn't want to order earlier, we ended up taking what's left in the freezer instead :( so, yeah. i wanted a rainbow design instead of pre-made but.. it was too late :( i was feeling so upset that i had to take a design i didn't really like because i really wanted strawberry ice cream + vanilla cake.

i made him upset as well because he is already spending a lot on my mini cake & i am feeling upset. but he told me to be grateful as even he himself doesn't even get an ice cream cake but i am getting it now, #thingsmyboyfrienddo . i am happy to have him as my boyfriend because he tells me things straight to my face that is not right. & i am not ashamed to state my flaws here because this is how i am. i can be quite demanding & greedy. i admit that.

i don't know it's me or what, i really think that i am blessed with an awesome daddy & boyfriend. they both spoil me to the max. :) it is bad, but i feel rather grateful deep inside, seriously. i may not show it, but i really love them both <3

anyway back to my day :D

as i was saying that i was feeling upset i couldn't get my cake design customized to whatever design i wanted, i just kept quiet and stick to the ugly design i Kevin booked & paid. then today, when i went to the freezer to look at other cakes, i found a NICER ONE!! i quickly told Kevin i like the other one instead & asked if i could change #greedy . he said okay & he immediately asked the guy if we could change the cake. YAY, the guy said yes so Kevin told him that we'll take this 'NICER' cake! :3

he paid the balance & there we go, we quickly rushed home because there's a karaoke dinner with my uncle, aunty, & my cousins <3 (i wished it was my whole family but well, work commitments.)

so yeah, after doing the whatnot, we went to Neway Puchong to meet up with them :D

we had dinner, we sang, we danced. from the latest hitz to the classics. we enjoyed so much. i never had this kind of entertainment with my family before. 'cause normally when we go to karaoke, my dad will usually hug the microphone & no latest hitz will be played ._.

so yes i am really grateful for today :)

i had so many wonderful people with me today, & nothing else matters.

thank you so much!

thank you so much to those who wished me via facebook wall posts, messages, whatsapp, texts, & calls <3

(I DIDN'T STUDY TODAY TOO WTF)

on a very very very sad note, my Drug & Disease 1 class test is on Tuesday ._. & Biopharmacy 3 class test is on Friday. yes, 2 class tests in the same week. & to make things worst, I haven't started anything on Biopharmacy 3. can my life be any worst ._.

le sigh.

#lifeofastudent

I'm a makeup lover.

but that doesn't mean i use a lot of make up everyday :3

i love buying them, keeping them & i try to use them but most of the time i fail. why? because i am lazy.

i love Majolica Majorca, Kiss Me, Clio, Dolly Wink, CandyDoll. most of them are drug store brands. i don't know why i don't fancy make up by Dior, Chanel, etc. oh except for Benefit lah. their concealer is (Y) they  have this concealaholic on sale where it's super good seriously (but it's a little pricey, RM100+). it's perfect to conceal acne, dark eye, etc. they have this whole 'range' in the mini box. & it's not travel friendly.

anyway, not gonna share about concealaholic today but..

Victoria's Secret Ultimate Makeup Kit!

got this in Resort World Sentosa :3 my mum got it for me, actually. i got this a while back ago but too lazy to share so yeah here i am :D

it is around SGD50+?

*ignore the post it note on the reflection*

the overview of the whole set :D 

from eyeshadow, to blusher, to bronzer, to brushes are all in this kit. (oh oh oh, speaking of travel friendly :D)

clearer view of the blusher & other bronzer shades :)

i think one of the blusher shade is good for gyaru makeup eh?

brushes, lip liner, eyeshadows..

eyeshadow, lip colors..

look at how compact they are! you don't need to even carry other stuff in other "small" sizes. plus you know, being girls, we tend to bring our whole wardrobe to travel "just in case you might wanna wear it" but you know it well that you have enough clothings & it's unnecessary to bring others.

this will help you, 'cause they have most of the awesome colors & you will get to choose from the selection :D

the contents.

i hope i did make you drool :D

i really love make up, seriously. but i am too shy to wear them out.

i watch YouTube videos on how to put on make up with different looks. really love them but yeah, too lazy & too shy. why? no idea why as well.

ohh! my good friend even got me another set of eyeshadow set which i really wanted for a year plus but didnt get them.

if you like seeing posts about my makeup stuff, do let me know so i will share more :D

they're most of the time, in kits or sets. :)

anyway, thank you for staying with me for the whole 5 minutes.. or more! it meant a lot to me x

College.

suddenly i got the mood to write about my college experience. i mean, after so long?! i'm already in 2nd year of uni & suddenly college? what's wrong with me right?

to be honest, although I'm in where I am now, my heart never left where I graduated college from - Sunway. probably because of the environment.. or something.. many disliked that area but personally i like it. i guess i go where less of my friends are. most of my friends went to Taylor's. or MCKL.

(uh yes I went to MCKL but I left 'cause they didn't allow me to switch to AUSMAT in February. & so coincidentally my dad wanted me to do Australian matriculation after few months thinking A Levels will be the best for me)

coming to uni alone is not an easy task. many of my friends in uni had their own 'known' friends from college, etc but I had none. even if I had, we were from different groups & soon after a semester, my college mate left because of some personal reasons.

i still remember my first day in uni. i stepped in knowing no one. met some friends, was happy. but then again, shit happens. probably i am the reason to all that has happened but, i got no other choice right? i still have to graduate.

anyway, back to college.

stepping into MCKL was almost similar to stepping into WMS, except we were wearing our own clothes but no shorts, no slippers, no sleeveless, nothing revealing. oh not even a simple smocked spaghetti strap dress with cardigan over (friend's experience). even i got sent to the vice principal's office for wearing a 3 quarter denim.

time table was okay, there are breaks here and there but no classes end earlier than 3pm everyday except for Friday because it's some CF day. so yeah, it was quite of a living hell for me. (but i still made it through :3)

the reason why i went to MCKL was because i had 30% off tuition fees as i was moving on from WMS :) MCKL & WMS are affiliated, you see. for a whole A Levels course plus books & stuff, it doesn't exceed RM15k :) plus they have good student academic records :)

halfway through sem1 (3 sems altogether for A Levels), SPM results were released & within a day or 2, we had education fair in KLCC & Mid Valley. went to work to experience work :D earned some cash :D

dad came by, & suddenly he went to inquire for me. initially i did propose MUFY because its the closest to Sydney Uni Foundation Program in AUS. I wanted to go to Australia what. I've no idea what made my dad changed his mind but to actually send me to Sunway to study AUSMAT o_o I still wonder now, some times.

we did consider polytechnics in Singapore for some pharmaceutical diploma, in hope that I will get to appeal to do lesser years in degree.  but oh well, Singapore Polytechnic & Ngee Ann Polytechnic decided to hurt my feelings by telling me that there is no way i can do what i planned for so.. here I am, still in Malaysia. we even went to the polytechnics in SINGAPORE for all that inquiries.

just a day after SPM results, my dad straightaway shoot me "you wanna do A Levels or AUSMAT?" when i just stepped into my house not even off my shoes yet. i took the whole day to think because I wanna do AUSMAT, but I don't wanna leave someone in A Levels.. it was a freaking dilemma.

then my dad said he'll decide for me - AUSMAT. don't wanna waste time. or so he says..

sure, i left with a heavy heart. i went to bid my goodbyes the next day, to apply for my refundable deposit, & say my thanks to Mr Reuben. Mr Reuben didn't give me a very confident feeling that I will do well in AUSMAT because March intake is very "hectic" & I won't have time to rush them off. so I left MCKL, with mixed feelings.

no more living hell, no more LONG jeans & sandals, WHAT DO YOU THINK?!?

so yeah, the day after was the orientation, (i can say that i registered the day before the orientation) went to Sunway looking like a village girl - long jeans, etc. trained by MCKL. (somehow i think its a good training cause it trains you to be "professional")

what made me happier was the time table is so awesome that I can "select" my own slots & every class will have different people :D i like that kind of life :3

since I wasn't good at Physics, I didn't do Physics. was about to do pure science & go ahead and die but i have no idea what stopped me at that moment. maybe i should have done Physics instead of Biology instead ._. not like i am good at Biology anyway.

time passed really fast that year, day after day, week after week, sem after sem. i left MCKL with big hopes that i don't wanna get my heart broken in Sunway, but oh well, shit happens again.

always skipping CAE, always sleeping in CAE classes..

i love CAE because i don't need to really study so much for that :D except sometimes it's another half-living hell because you need to know the latest news in some companies & stuff like that. it was a "business" subject. hell boy, little did I know I love studying business. but not accounting wtf.

although i skip & sleep in CAE classes, my results for CAE paper will never go lower than 70% :D unlike other subjects, if I don't read or do something about it, it'll go below 50%. except for Biology. even if I stay awake 24/7 to study Biology, I can never make it through 60% ._. 1st sem was even shittier, 46% I think..

other subjects were 70% & 80%, but for Biology.. the only subject out of 5, I got 40+% ._.

the script looked ugly of course.

so i made a new goal for myself - to score more than 50% ._. I made it through that, I got quite above average for Biology for sem2. guess my hard work paid off (making my own notes, study JUST biology). i think my results were all above average that year, except Biology. (anyway, for ATAR they only take top 4 subjects for AUSMAT, so i kinda decided that i will flunk my Biology ._.)

made new friends in college, made good friends in college.. a bond that cannot be forgotten - Woei Yee, Jo'Anne & Michelle.

oh yes we had our ups & downs but we went through them all. honestly i miss them. i have no idea why i take this bond so seriously when maybe they don't give a crap about it. (well, I am still learning, alright?)

since i had no sisters (except for my cousin) & my brother was away, i was all alone at home, until Woei Yee became my sister :) yes we're not related anyhow but i felt like, i was loved & all. it's another sisterly bond i can never have with anyone. it's something that cannot be bought at any price.

there's once we argued 'cause i didn't want to cook soup for her. oh dear, look at that!? what kind of stupid reason, right? but it's what made us closer, & how she always piss me off, it became a norm.

we were in different classes for 2 subjects - Chemistry, & another elective. she did Psychology while I did CAE. so from Chem 8, I moved to Chem 7, where the 3 of them are there. i went for classes in the morning sometimes for Chem 8, and I crashed Chem 7 anyhow :)

my teachers were all awesome teachers. they weren't only like "you keep quiet now, dont talk when i'm teaching" but they were all interactive. ready to help anytime. i liked that kind of teachers. except for Miss Diana was a little scary o_o but it's where I get to improve my Chemistry :)

many disliked the teachers i liked, because they are all funny & they talk nonsense or they really teach. to me, they are educating me, but to them, they are boring. since I had a "mini failure" from my SPM results, i started having "hardworking" disease ever since.

i didn't get ATAR 90+ like i planned for, i have only myself to blame. i got myself hurt for some reason and was distracted. i got ATAR 90+ for mocks but WACE gave me 10% discount ._. so I got 80+. which is why, i am not in Australia :( or Singapore.

IMU was my last choice since i didn't want to pursue my degree here but that's where my results can only lead me to. so yeah </3 they say IMU has the highest qualification but i don't think so..personally. it's because i got rejected by many universities to know enough that IMU is not that tough to enter. but it's definitely tough to make it through the years in IMU.

it's easy to get in, but it's tough to finish the degree.

the environment in IMU is so different that it always make me miss Sunway so much. my batch has too little people compared to other batches. everything seems so limited in IMU.. but then again, i cannot compare because of the location differences. thank god there are places to eat nearby IMU - Sri Petaling. they have Chatime, Ochado, Padi House, PappaRich, etc! :3

& IMU is also 15 mins away from Sunway :) i missed Sunway so much i actually went to Sunway almost daily the first few weeks. then it slowly died to a few times a week, then fortnightly, then never ._.

it took a year for me to overcome this deep feelings inside me. i felt like crap, i cried several times but of course, i told none of the 3. don't even think that any of them will know. to them, life has moved on, & friends known in the past are meant to be forgotten. i know i should move on as well. but as much as i want to, i do cherish good friends i made in the past & want to keep them.

the truth hurts, i know i have to let go everything i had in my memory - Sunway, college, & friends. yes it sure gave me a very good experience studying there but I know i have to let them all go sooner or later.

the reason why i am typing this out is to keep a 'memoir' on my college experience for myself.

i know everyone goes through this, and it's only how well they take it :) i guess this is life. constantly moving on from the past.

anyhow, Sunway College will always be planted in my heart.

after all, i am a Sunway alumni :)

June

so.. it's June now?

can time pass any faster?!

when time passes fast, it means exams are nearing and can i highlight that i am not ready!? oh gosh. oh dear.

now i am panicking as usual and i don't know what else to do besides panicking. it's too scary and my heart is that weak to accept the fact that exams are nearing.

i'm only at page 17 when there's another 43+ pages to tackle. or more.

& it's the time where all assignments are to be handed in, and class tests coming one after another...not forgetting finals in July.

i should start counting down till the finals now..

i don't think there's a brighter side in this month. i suddenly feel unwanted wtf. so i guess i don't think there's any surprises this year, or any celebrations so.. i shall let it be because i won't be feeling any happier as exams and etc are around the corner. let alone next year's 21st birthday. before i could celebrate my birthday, i'll be leaving, if all goes well.

why is my life this risky?!

#failforever

I did say i wanna blog almost everyday but oh well. Plan failed.

why?

1. lazy
2. busy - i also don't know what i'm busy of

anyway, on a happier note, i am going to Singapore this weekend & yes i am super excited for no reason. it's not like i've not been there. it's been 7 months since i stepped into Singapore. kinda miss it but i don't miss the exchange rate.

& yes i am gonna buy Liese hair products in Singapore :) since it has hair spray & stuff already so i can't wait to get them! :p

Malaysia don't even have heat protector spray for hair straightener & curler thingy. it's something like you protect your hair from getting damaged from the heat & stuff.

i got it last year, & just used it 2 weeks ago for the very first time :)

very very pleasant smell. & my next cue is the hair spray! :) hope it'll not smell like crap :/ crap - strong smell. i guess it'll have a pleasant smell as well.

& on a very bad note, exams are in exactly 2 months' time & i haven't even started anything. i should but i am too lazy so.. i don't know! i should start studying now, i know.

soon. when i am back from Singapore.

hope i will get to go to Universal Studios again! <3

& eat my laksa in Toast Box. heavenly.

#healthpromotion #lifeasastudent

So, the question I got was something like micro & macro functions of a pharmacist in public health. Okay. I'm so lost can?!? & I don't think I can get anything done by tomorrow morning. So screwed yet so relaxed.

I really don't know how to get started, because the deadline seems so faraway but I know it'll be tomorrow in a blink of an eye. I should start..I think?

& also I got extemporaneous laboratory session tomorrow too. I hope I won't have to get near to any ichthammol substances anymore. It stinks like crap, like tar? I can't take it anymore seriously.

Anyhow on a lighter note, you looking big doesn't necessarily mean you're fat :)

I used to think I was overweight with fats & only fats. & no muscles. Turns out I'm wrong because I'm overweight muscular.

What's overweight muscular? Isn't that overweight already? Lol hello it's not :) It means I am muscular in a sense where I've high mass of muscles in my body. I least expected that because I don't do exercise.

I guess I gained all that from ballet. Explaining to my friends will only get us to argue so, yes to you guys who might be less judgmental :) Yes I'm not that normal skinny/slim girl walking by the streets. I've big bones, & I don't have a small bust either. & I'm not tall either. I don't stand taller than 5 feet.

I'm wondering how to break my muscle cells to fats, & then I can lose them all. Tough aye. I don't wanna do treadmill anymore because it'll cause my thighs to be even bigger than it already is. I want it to be smaller. No don't tell me to run because I've enough muscles in my thighs. Ahhh any exercise to make my thighs smaller?

Please leave a comment :p

mini oreo & vote!

something to share..

mini oreo <3

i have no idea why i decided to pose with this but yeah.

it is as good as the normal oreo & what's different from the normal oreo is..

the size!

it's bite sized super cute zomg. you can swallow all in :p

not really but it's really fun nom'ing bite sized food in my opinion. like when you're bored, watching tv, surfing the net, lurking around youtube, etc. oh & also studying!

eating this won't make you feel 'bloated' with all of it because of the packaging which is like a tupperware full of mini bite sized oreo's ;p you can eat it whenever you feel like it and close it back. not like the normal oreo which will bring you back to no return after opening it.

& also, another find (yes i love his dude)



his voice is damn good so what can i do? T_T

TheSingaporenRapper & Electricladyland8 damn good! serious! listen first then comment ;p also, vote for them because they're participating in some Youtube star contest :)

How to vote?
Like the page: https://www.facebook.com/bash/app_274222529330117
Like the video when you browse through the gallery! (Nice Guys - Acoustic/Rap Cover (Sam Driscoll x Tzire)

I love it eh! what about you? :p

#hotproblems

hot problems yo!?

just in care you've not heard it..



a cover of this:



I think Sammmydee purposely do a cover of this. Read his descriptions & then his tags on that video.

I thought he likes it but lol! I like it how he made is cover more music-ish. Like it's meant to be a song? Trust me, his voice compensates all :)

Listening to Double Take made me laugh harder because well.. :) shan't say anything.

Sammmydee will make you smile, especially with his other videos. He's really funny. I don't know if he's really funny or what, but I laugh every time I watch his videos.

Sometimes I do wonder, why Double Take sings that song? Oh & its a single :/

random

i was about to post something but decided not to. yes i know it's my blog, but :/

i'm just too traumatized.

however on a lighter note, i got things to keep in mind for tomorrow!

1. watch The Avengers with le boyfriend
2. go for lunch with his mum
3. go to Pavilion to buy medications for daddy
4. go to Low Yat to buy a new adapter for my laptop. my original one is dead omg, damn heart broken
5. try to do assignment on Health Promotion

so fast i'm in sem 4 already. ah, another 4 sems to go down with.

i am damn scared can!?

what if the history repeats itself? i don't want eh. i know, if i don't want i should start studying now but ahh. there's so many distractions! :'/

anyhow, imma try! :) i know i can do it! <3

i think i am gonna write more of "self loving education" which involves confidence, & life experiences. so bear with me. or maybe not..

Breakeven

i've been on YouTube for a few weeks already (& what i mean is, i've been lurking around from here to there, etc) & found 2 awesome singers for this song.

most probably you guys know them already but let me post this :)

1. Jayesslee <3



2. Electricladyland8 <3<3



singaporean boy! mixed with british eh :p


yes i was damn excited for some reason listening to his voice & watch his videos omg, feels like i got a crush on someone~ yes on a youtube star.

that shows how lifeless & donkey i am :/

a not so good day

skipped classes because i slept at 5am this morning, & i couldn't wake up by 10.30am. went for lunch with my dad, niece & her mum.

after all that, i went for class. more like lab practical - week 2 (calculations, dosage checking & liquids). while walking to the lift passing by the guard, i had to search for my ID or else i will not be allowed to enter or go through hassle to write down my name, etc. so yes i dag it and found it & flew all the way to the lift since i was kinda late already. the guard yelled from the other corner calling me but i went up anyway thinking he didn't see my id.

so upon reaching the lab.. i didn't even know i had to print out the questions from the e-learning website so i went there empty handed. so, i borrowed my friend's paper to photostat. whether i did it myself or not, it didn't matter i guess, since i was running out of time!

went to the locker to get some money...MY PURSE IS NOT THERE OMG. i almost cried because all my cards, I/C, driving license, etc, they are ALL THERE. i cannot afford to lose it. i kept on calling to check if my purse is in the car because i didn't drive today. called, & my dad said no.

anyhow i needed the money to photostat so i had to ask my friend to spare me 40 cents. yes that is how sad i looked like ._.

& somehow i remembered that it could be downstairs because why would the guard yelled? i just went downstairs although i knew i was very very late already.

went down to LG, and the guard magically asked me, "your wallet? i handed it to SB already, so you can go check it there yourself."

feeling relieved, i ran downstairs anyway. it's not the money that matters, it's all the things i have inside. i don't want to go to JPJ to report lost for my driving license & wait to get a new one, JPN to re-do my I/C & still have hours to wait, call 4-5 banks to report my cards are lost & go through a freaking long way to get back new cards & all. & thank god i didn't have much in there as well.

moral of the story: never ever be so careless & blur. & never think that the guard is calling you for nothing.

but when you're careless, you're careless. sometimes you cannot control :/ but you can try to be less careless, i think.

revamp

hello lovelies!

just to let you know that my blog is still under construction & it should be okay soon!

under construction = edits, etc.

do stay tuned for more! :)

& i hope i will stay on the blogosphere for good now.

love & trust

i've not been blogging & i am trying my best to blog now. & i hope i won't go missing again.

anyway.. this would be the most lousiest & useless post ever because it'll be about relationship, & it'll be #mystory. & long winded so beware.

obviously not everyone will have a smooth sailing relationship. & the part i am going to talk about, is the beginning of the relationship.

i know i am not the only one who face this, & i might be 1 of the few who acts this way. the reason to this is because of trust.

"trust takes a long time to build & seconds to destroy"

sounds familiar? yes it should be familiar to everyone.

my boyfriend and i started off as friends normally, & when he decided to take this relationship a step further, it broke it friendship, not because i didn't want it but i don't trust guys' words. i know, not all guys are jerks, etc.  but i grew up in an environment that has scarred my perception, for life.

he didn't stop there, although he knew he was treated unfairly. i knew it too. but i didn't care, because i was selfish. i liked him, but not enough to start a relationship & i still wanted it. for fun. for excitement. to cure my broken heart because i got my heart broken by another guy.

& how i got my trust issues worse
back when you're in high school & you're in a relationship which you thought will last, you'll trust almost everything your other half says. i mean, everything. sometimes you will not be sober enough to think what's right or wrong, or which sounded more real & what not. at that particular point, i trusted whatever my used-to-be other half said about future plans with me. & as time passes by, it fell into pieces because of mistakes made. shit happens, really. what i really did not expect was, he would leave me. he betrayed my feelings & my trust. i think it was somehow like a threat but i didn't notice? the reason why i didn't notice is because we were together for more than 3 years.

yes, more than 3 years.

it was at the point when i was most vulnerable - pms. (screw you people who will say don't use the whole period issue as an excuse. it's not an excuse, okay. it's when your hormones are screwed up, & how to make it right? there's no way to make it right.) plus i didn't get the results i wanted, so i was feeling down & all. i broke down that night, on the phone. only to hear this after a 20 minutes worth of crying phone call - "i'm too sick of all this, i can't take this anymore" when he told me, "i will never leave you. forever." 1 month before that.

i decided to flunk my studies that year (to which my dad still thinks that i was being playful that year until now but really, i gave up in everything, i didn't have the heart to study anymore, etc because of 1 guy) although i knew i could have ignored it but it was tough because i really didn't know what to do at that time.

i spent 7 months crying because of him, to recover. what happened to the 8th? i realized that SPM was near - 4 weeks away and i haven't even started studying!? i had form 5 work to catch up with, & i had form 4 work to revise. in 4 weeks. then i couldn't give a crap about it anymore.

in that whole 7 months, i don't know why but i begged him to come back to me. i really don't know why i was that desperate. i did tell him that i don't mind breaking up but please, any time but not that year because that year was very important, and i don't want to screw up my studies. i didn't mind if he had no feelings for me or whatever but please be there just for a few months.

whatever he would say whenever i cried:
before break up please dont cry because when you cry, i feel useless, & it hurts..
7 months i don't feel anything whenever you cry

i knew he had no heart for me anymore, but i really was desperate to put that cellophane tape on my heart just to hold it back for awhile more. but failed.

since then i had no faith in love. plus since a 3 years old relationship can break that easily, what does a relationship signify? i was 17-18 at that time, so yes i definitely know i was young & naive. but i was still learning. its easy to say, "dump that guy & move on". not everyone can do that, you know? everyone is different.

when i was ready to love, i get rejected again & again. until i gave up & chose to play around instead. & when i was ready to love again, i got my heart, broken to the core where i had nowhere right to turn, and i just do not want to get myself into any serious relationship anymore.

i took longer time to get over the guy whom i had no relationship with compared to my ex. i have no idea why, but i really liked him although i knew i had no chance with him, at all. i admit i was stupid & i let him take advantage of my feelings & allowed him to trample over my heart.

the time when i finally let this guy go, is when i'm with Kevin, my current boyfriend. yes, i was still missing this guy when i already have a boyfriend. i only realized that he was not worth a single brain cell of mine when i woke up suddenly knowing that Kevin has done a lot for me, and for us.

he is the one who made this relationship work.
he is the one treating me like a princess when the other one treats me like dust.
he is the one who cooks me food whenever i am hungry - when i am supposed to be the one dealing w/ cooking. when it comes to food, no one fights with the provider :)
he is the one who hugs me warmly to let me sleep whenever i feel like sleeping.
he is the one who tries all his best to make me smile when i cry.
he is the one who closes his ears whenever i am pms-ing & he knows when.
he is the one who tolerates all my nonsense when others couldn't.

he's right, i never put any effort in this relationship. & a promise i made to myself recently, that i would make it up to what i've done wrong, & all the unfair treatments i gave him.

it took me almost a year to realize that i really do love Kevin. i never dared to admit that i do although i tell him "i love you". yes it means that those 3 words meant nothing to me. it's because i thought since guys can say them w/o feeling anything, why can't i?

to those of you who have similar trust issues like i do, your time will come when you realized that not trusting for a certain period should come too its end. but then again, do protect your heart because you have the right to. give him time to prove himself, & i am not saying weeks or months are enough. it took me almost a year, & others may take more than that to open up to trusting again. even now, i don't trust him 100% but i do trust him a little more than before :)

i also realized this when Kevin and i argued even more when i brought this trust issue up, and i said i don't trust him & never will give a crap about trusting him. little did i know it shook him to the core & he kept it to himself, until when everything was calm again, he told me he felt very hurt about what i said. i thought he doesn't care, and what he wants out of this relationship is nothing but fun.

we're together for 1 year 22 days now :) & still counting. & still trying to trust him more.

first 3 days working in a pharmacy

oooh yes!! yesterday marked my third day working in a pharmacy. not hospital pharmacy but a retail pharmacy.

there are differences although they are both.. pharmacies.

hospital pharmacy is more towards medications while retail pharmacy is more towards everything! :)

the feeling of working in a pharmacy is so much better than any other retail stores -_- i never knew i won't feel like crap.

getting paid as well, although i thought i was not gonna get paid. not too good but a basic part time pay.

in other branches, they are only giving me RM3.50/hour but in this branch (as what the branch manager said, this branch is having top 3 sales among other branches hence we got more work to do thus we got slightly higher pay as well) RM5/hour.

even anyone's basic salary here is higher. not bad eh?

what i've been doing:

1. stock up medications, etc
zomg 1st day was shitty because i don't know which medicine puts where & where. and also when people asked me for polytar (some anti-dandruff thing) i don't even know what's that! when i told the pharmacist i don't know what's that, she told me to learn the whole placing of the pharmacy is knowing medications alone won't help! then she asked me some basic question, "what's O.R.S.?" and i can't even answer because i don't know -_-;

2. talking
making new friends :) there's 3 other trainees as well - 1 part-time (from some local university), 1 student going into nottingham for pharmacy, 1 student planning to go to imu for nutrition. not bad eh? ;p

3. correcting product codes & prices
T_T people tagged the items (5-6 boxes of some medicine) wrongly of their product codes & prices then i gotta change it back to the correct one by re-writing :( not only once, a few times already. after re-writing my wrong coded products that i tagged on the first day, i've been trying to be very careful not to make any mistake because i hate using pen and correct the codes by cancelling it and re-write the new one, same goes to the prices on their price tags.

4. arranging medications in its cupboards
can you believe it i took 1 hour to re-arrange the things in 1 cupboard? its not even as big as a wardrobe but i took 1 hour! -_- even for syrups when they have the least items. ahh i feel so slow. but doing this helped me to know more of the medications although i don't know what is it for. most of the syrups are safe for children :)

5. price tagging
whoa my favorite. although it's not in my profession. all i need to do is to tag all the new stocked items that arrives.

6. cry on ibt days (ibt = stocking up days)
they stock thrice a week, and i thought it's once a week. i wanna cry! :( cause when they come, we gotta finish the work asap because 2 days later, new stocks will come zomg. or else you'll stack up all the stocks & you'll cry.


yep that's practically all.

i really enjoy it.

now i'm thinking of working once a week in the future once uni starts because it's really fun -_- now i'm scared if i'll get bored :(

oh sorry no pictures :D

i miss blogging!

i really miss blogging so so so much!

but i tend to get really personal & all emotional every time i blog about something & i always offend people with my thoughts.

that's why i kinda stopped.

but blogging is the only way i can release! :/

so yeah, i shall try blogging again :D

stay tuned! :)

p/s exams just ended so i'm damn happy & damn free but damn scared as well! =/

gonna start doing my placement in a pharmacy & i am not looking for it.. because i wanna sleep this whole month! i hope that my unhappy cny paid for me to pass :/ unhappy because i didn't really get to enjoy, and i didn't get to jump around like a happy child :(

sooooo, i shall enjoy my life to the maximum before my results come out :) life's at stake now!

okok, not so kua zhang. just gonna relax and stuff before results out :)

of exam & life

Hello world.

I've not been blogging.

Probably because I don't know what to blog about & whatever my thoughts are, it seems to offend people so badly for some reason =/

So yeah anyhow, exams are coming up & I am so not ready. Scary but.. I got no other choice!

I shall wish myself luck so I will pass.